giffordm

I wandered down your old street today. I was taking a detour, never meant to stumble that way. But there I was, on the street where I met you, by the house you used to occupy. I could almost hear the sounds of your son and I racing through the puddles in the pouring rain. Just to the next light pole... His laughter echoed like a ghost through my soul. Shadows of memories that still walk with me. Your daughter's smile flashed before me, and a pain like lightning thundered through my heart. My hands still remember the signs I learned for her. I can still see her little fingers, telling me I'm beautiful when I smile. M-smile. That was her sign f

Words dance on the tip of my mind thoughts skittering away from focus emotions on hold afraid to feel afraid to fall tip right over the edge toppling down into the night tumbling through the shadows to awaken in the dark the mind is such a cruel place can't hold on to the sun for long though I fight to keep this smile stubbornly clinging to the light with hungry demons at my heels I will not succumb I will not surrender this darkness will not devour me this fear will not win I've come too far to fall now I've become too strong to die I will not surrender I will fight to survive.

I'm suffocating in this silence awaiting your return so my heart can beat again so I can breathe again it's so cold here without you trapped within my frozen soul your smile is a memory the song of your laughter lost among the debris of my mind yet I find my tears are dry hollow sobs die in my chest alone I am nothing not even a whisper nor a breath no exhalation of these thoughts of this pent up emotion choked down commotion all of it means nothing hidden in this emptiness covered in the shadows that fell once you were gone.

Slaughtered smiles broken down your laughter drowns me I choke push again little harder dead within drop me fall away a fading light.

static smiles in the darkness whispered laughter echoes 'round the silent slaughter of denial we know that i've been found. Broken mirror of perception fragmented faces fall shown masks of our deception lost truths never told. Sweet sorrow bathed in moonlight sad melodies unheard freedom found through fire rebirth from ashes of the burned.

when did it become so hard for me to talk to you? where did we go? when did we fade apart? slow disipation of our hearts as we break away eroding into seclusion faces falling like smiling strangers grasping the illusion of familiarity how did we die? falling into this broken dance with a broken beat collide apart as we sink gasping out lies struggling futilely to reclaim our lives to heal this seperation of face and soul apart we're whole just let me fall away shed like wounded skin disintegrate beneath your feet for i was never yours

another bullet to the heart a new wound to nurse push me back down stomp me into the ashes break me apart again cut me burn me tear me to pieces its ok i'm only bleeding let me fall this new pain will carry me on until i can't anymore but its ok i'm only dying

He laughs so loud, that I can't hear. I try to hide, can't face my fear. He's always chasing, and though I run fast. I still can't escape, my broken past. His face isn't fading, his voice is still clear. It's hard to move on, when he is so near. Like a cloud blocks out sunlight, his shadow's been cast. Causing a darkness, I hope doesn't last. When I hear or see him, I know it's not real. But what I know doesn't matter, it's about what I feel. I feel him around, even when it's just me. I wish I could lose him, and set myself free. Lost thoughts remembered, old pains renewed. Reprogram my memories, erase what I knew.

Let me fall let me crash I have to burn I need to bleed must break apart so I can recreate what I never was.

I could write about a peaceful lamb, but thats not the type of person I am. I have lead a crazy life, one thats full of pain and strife. But thats something I'm working on, someday soon I hope to be strong. Because I'm sick of the pain inside, I'm tired of everything I try to hide. That is how my life has been, but this is now and that was then. Hopefully soon it will all be done, the evil men have had their fun. They cannot make me cry, no more can they make me want to die. Because I'm gonna beat them down, in their evil I'll make them drown. I am going to win this fight, and live on in a new light.

I am thoroughly suspicious, I don't know what to do. I want to ask some questions, but I'm so afraid fo you. I stand up for my beliefs, though you think I'm wrong. Yet when I think of you, all my strength is gone. I refuseto let you, stab me in the back. Somewhere I will find, all the courage that I lack. So if you think this is over, if you think the fight is through. You better listen up backstabber, because I've got news for you. I have found so many, that you have hurt before. We are coming together, you don't scare us anymore. Together we are powerful, you cannot beat us down. Now you know we're coming for you, I k

 Sky sat alone, chest aching from the tears she attempted to contain. Liz had just left, and the scent of her lingered on Sky’s shirt. She missed Liz before she had even left. That last half hour or so was always so hard, filled with the knowledge that Liz would once again be out of the reach of Sky’s embrace. Oh, the embrace…it was the most painfully beautiful thing. Sky craved it, the feel of Liz’s arms around her, the steady thump of Liz’s heart against her chest. The desire for that closeness was enough to drive her insane. She had watched her leave, as she always did, standing with the door cracked, watching

Free floating here, hovering above who i used to be, looking down upon the world where we used to spend our time, but my time is gone. I walk these streets, searching, can't remember what I wish to find. Something calls to me and my silent steps continue on. Part of me wants to cross over, fly into the stars and on to my next rebirth, but I can't let go of this...feeling. I try to touch the world, yet like a passing breeze i glide right on through. The ghosts of memories swirl around me, almost recognizable in this shimmering darkness. I carry on..... In the quiet she sits. Moonshadows bathe her face, marbled in her stillness as the world sp

She knew her roommates were asleep. She could hear their slow steady breathing and occasional dreaming mumbles. Poor Sera and Jen, they would be distraught. But she couldn't think of that now, not when she was so close. The room was darker than a moonless midnight when the stars don't shine, but she knew her way around. She had been here for as long as she could remember, at least 3 years, everything before that was blank. She ever so stealthily crept around Jen's bed and slid underneath. She laid there for a few moments, listening intently to the multitude of sounds around her. To most people, "normal" people, the night sounds on the 3rd f